To keep my sanity

So as a side project I've been looking for a job to do from home!  We don't need the money but I need something more to do and I need a creative outlet.  So I've been looking at becoming a freelance writer.  I've been a good writer all throughout high school and college but have never been good at writing any sort of fiction.  With that, writing about what I want to seems to fit the bill.  I have opinions on just about everything and I try to make myself knowledgeable about the things I'm about to partake upon.  With that I'm confident that I can come up with some good writing material but...what if I write my articles and the company doesn't want to hire me?  This is what I'm afraid of the most.  I know I won't become rich over night but it is a step in the right direction for me to able to enjoy something while staying at home with my kids.  Plus I can keep the job even if we move! Comments please!

Christmas is almost here!!

So Christmas is next week!  Wow!  I'm not ready.  I'm not even ready for the puppy that is about to join us on Sunday!  I still have too many things to buy.  We decided to throw a Christmas Day dinner.  Why?  My house is a disaster.  I've run out of disposable diapers and have yet to find the rest of my cloth diaper supply's!  This is not leading up to a good weekend.  I've had some motivation but it usually doesn't appear until just before my sweet husband gets home!  I'd really like to have my entire house clean and stay clean for at least a day!  Since becoming a SAHM I've become very particular about things.  That annoys me.  What happened to the girl that just went with the flow?  It used to be it would get done eventually cause we were so busy.  Now if I don't get the dishes done I'm a wreck. And I'm not even pregnant yet!!! Is the good Lord above trying to tell me something?  I'm frustrated that I can't come up with anything exciting for my kids to do.  I think I have something and then they break my heart because they don't want to do it!  These were things that they used to do while in daycare.  Makes me feel like a horrible mom and wife cause I can't seem to get up when I want to in the morning, make breakfast for everyone, get the house cleaned in record time like I used to, and do everything educational and fun that I want to do with my kids.  Now we are adding a puppy to the mix and it makes my anxiety rise.  Maybe I need to cry.  How am I going to deal with my husband being gone 4 nights of the week, me being gone 2, my mother and grandmother taking care of the kids (I'm so thankful for), a puppy that needs a lot of attention and possibly getting pregnant? I'm overwhelmed and my husband is out skiing today.  Hate it when he only gives me 2 days warning.  WHY IN THE WORLD WOULD YOU WANT YOUR OFFICE WORKERS TO GO SKIING 1 WEEK BEFORE CHRISTMAS?  Money is tight!  Not super tight and we definitely have money to spare but definitely not to my comfort level.  I miss how much we made when we were both in the military.  Now it is just half.  We prepped as much as we could but emergencies come up.  I hate having to use emergency money for emergencies and then build it back up.  Makes my anxiety rise.  I've worked to hard for everything I have.  Worked to hard on getting this house and all the nice things we can have while having young children.  I'm still waiting on a long overdue payment from the Veterans Affair office.  I'm going to school and the GI Bill is supposed to give me a living allowance.  That is stressful.  Can't wait until my husband starts getting paid for 1st class.  That comes at the beginning of the year.  Hallelujah!  Maybe this all boils down to the fact that I've stopped exercising!  I enjoy swimming.  Yet either myself or the kids have been sick so I can't take them to the gym daycare.  Ugh and then H1N1.  Didn't want to possibly get them exposed at the gym.  Now I find myself needing to go.  Needing to go much more than ever yet I find every excuse in the world.  I just want to cry!  I hate the cold yet I'm going to have to brave it here next week to walk the dog.  Maybe this dog is the blessing we need.  Here I am complaining about everything that needs to get done but maybe she is what will keep me motivated to get everything done and keep it done.  I don't want anything bad to happen to her.  Plus to keep her healthy she needs to be walked.  Well maybe that'll be our way of getting exercise as well.  I know I just ranted and raved about everything and it is hard.  But this is my trial I have to get through and I'll be a better person for it.  I have faith that'll it'll get better soon I just have to remember that I am far from perferct and that I'm sure there are others out there with cleaner  houses than I and have a child who wants to be potty trained. 

9 days

We only have 9 more days until our puppy is ready to come home.  If you are interested in seeing what she looks like, the owners blog is to the right.  It is Wasatch Canine Camp.  Ours is yellow!  We are super excited to see her again and to have her come join our family.  We have everything minus the dog food for her to come be a part of this family.  I'm sure we will have many years of greatness with this dog and that she will be such a great part of our family!  I guess I'm getting more attached to it than anyone else in my little family since I know the healing powers a dog can have.  Plus since she is a puppy it is like having a baby all over again.  I'm definitely not opposed to that and I'm sure she will fit in just well with our quirky, crazy, and rambunctious family!  On the plus side our neighbors behind us have a German Shepherd dog as well so we have someone to ask questions to as well as possible playdates!  As soon as she comes we will post a ton of pictures.  Until then....

Christmas Photo

So on Sunday we did our Christmas photo.  The boys were very uncooperative.  The oldest didn't want to look/smile and the youngest was having a case of the "Mansies"!  So we got a semi-decent photo but it still bugs me that we can't get a great photo.  One day I keep tellling myself! So here is the debut.....

H1N1

No we don't have the swine flu.  We have finally decided to get our kids vaccinated against the swine flu.  This was an ever long process of deciding if we should or shouldn't.  Since the military is requiring us by order, we have to get both the seasonal and H1N1 flu vaccines.  We did some research and waited and prayed and it seems that because Steve and I are required to get it our kids would as well, on the basis that the shot did not have the preservative Thimerosal.  So today they are getting their shots again!  At that I was going to get it anyways because I plan on getting pregnant in January and the way this flu has hit pregnant women....enough said about that!  So what is everyone else's thought on the H1N1 vaccine?  Had I no young children or was planning on getting pregnant, I would not be getting the vaccine.  Last year was my first year to get a flu vaccine since I was a child.  I've never had the flu but this strain particularly scares me cause of how easily it is transmitted.  Thus this has equalled me not really taking my kids to very busy places.  It is one thing if I am sick....another when my kids are.  I'll let you know what, if any, side effects happen!

Check this out my female friends!

http://rixarixa.blogspot.com/2009/12/breastfeeding-in-church.html

I love Rixa's blog!  She is so imformative and insightful.  She did this post on breastfeeding in church.  Take a look at it and see if this is something that you've seen/noticed.  It is more informative than anything but I found it quite nice.  She's LDS so all of us who are LDS know what she is talking about. 

Motivation

I have none!  Not one drop to do anything!  I think it is due to me not feeling well.  Christmas is around the corner and our puppy comes home in just a couple of weeks.  I need to get this house together so stuff isn't destroyed.  I still haven't found my SD card reader to upload photos.  It is getting annoying since there are family members that are wanting some pictures sent to them. 
On another note...we pretty much have our Christmas shopping done.  Maybe a thing or two left but nothing of great significance.  My husband bought me a Cricut!  The newest one!  Yea!  So I had to come home and wrap it up so I wouldn't be tempted to play.  My mom also got one and we played around with it!  I can't wait to play with mine but first I have to organize my office.  See the list just keeps piling up!  Ugh!

The boys are doing well.  They are just being boys that's for sure.  Well this is all for now.

Update time

Well it has been awhile since I've posted! We have moved into our new home and it is awesome!  We are still unpacking boxes.  It seems to never end and we have so much stuff!  I think it is time to get rid of a lot of items!  I'd post pictures  but I can't find my SD card reader!  If it isn't one thing it is another.  The boys are doing well.  I think Aaden is finally comfortable in his new environment so we are going to potty train starting tomorrow.  Hopefully he'll stick with it!  Landon is doing well also.  He is so smart!  He's attempting to say some words but is pretty content with just walking and playing and eating!  On another note...we are going to look at German Shepherd puppies today.  They will be available to bring home on Christmas Eve!  I'm so excited!  Besides us wanting more children we feel there is something missing from our family!  I believe that is an animal.  I've been wanting a dog ever since we decided we were going to buy a house!  I think it'll help Aaden as well.  He is very fearful of big dogs and I think if he is around one that is small and then grows big it'll help him understand them more!  We will see!

So I get a text today from my husband saying he is going to the ER.  This crackhead thinks he is 20 still.  He was playing basketball and got an elbow to the eye trying to block!  Needless to say his eye got cut open and he is currently at the ER getting stitches!  Great!  I knew it was only a matter of time before an ER visit was for him.  Hopefully his eye doesn't swell too much and it heals quickly!  Other than that nothing is going on too much.  It's pretty quiet.  Hopefully this weekend we find things so I can post some pics!

Musings

So we still haven't closed on our house!  Bummer.  Hopefully today.  We'll see.  On another note my son deleted all the pictures off my camera so I've lost all our house building pictures. Can't blame the kid for wanting to play with something in plain site.  I'm sick of hearing about this swine flu.  I have to work this weekend and we have the Navy Birthday ball on Saturday night.  Normally I'm excited but with all this drama over closing I'm just annoyed by it all.  My grandmothers car got stolen right in front of her house.  She started came back in to grab her purse and they drove off with it.  They were watching her.  Creepy people.  I feel so bad.  I wish I was more  aware when it happened and I could have ran out after the truck that was transporting the thieves and got a license plate.  I just feel terrible.  Umm my hubby is trying to convince me to have another baby.  Needless to say I'm not ready!  I want another one but I want to be a little more financially prepared since we will have this one at home and so we will have to come with out of pocket expenses before we file a claim with our insurance. On top of that I want to take a few classes.  School starts on Monday for me again.  They cancelled my psychology course but luckily I was able to take another class.  I have two easy classes this semester which is nice since we are moving into our house.  I wish I had a picture to post but oh well.

Update time!

I'm a slacker like everyone else!  But my excuse is I have no internet access where I live so I have to wait until I come to my moms! HA!  OK so our house is coming along quite nicely.  They have the siding and brick on the house and the doors and stair railing is up inside the house.  Now they have to paint, lay flooring and put in cabinets and appliances!  Holy crap!  I'm going to be in a house in less then 4 weeks!  I'm so excited!  So is Aaden.  He know's what room is his and can't wait.  He talks about his house all the time!  I will do picture overload once we move in!  On another note...my baby has turned 1.  We had a monkey themed party and it was so much fun!  I will hopefully get the video/pics posted but only to my FB account.  Well that is all I can think of now.  I'm so tired from doing homework tonight and doing it quickly just in case the power went out that I can't think of anything else to post.  I will definitely try to post more frequently once I move in.

What my husbands co-workers think of me!

Yesterday was a pretty horrible day. Not really but when people don't do their job right I want to choke them like Homer does to Bart. Anyways...insurance companies drive me crazy! That and DirecTV! My husband puts me on speaker phone as we are trying to get my profile and the insurance straightened out. Needless to say I am not very quiet when I get put on speaker. Husband and I say our goodbyes! Co-worker comes in and says "Don't take this the wrong way but your wife sounds like she could be a complete B*T*H" Damn straight I can. He smiled. I laughed. She doesn't know how lucky she is to have him as her boss. Other than that everyone else thinks I'm cool and nice!

Mid July day!

Woke up to a pleasant smiling baby boy. Sat at the table. 3 year old wakes up growling! Ate waffles. Got showered. Got ready. Got boys ready. Asked sister if she wanted to go to the aquarium. Went to go pick up sister. Went to aquarium. Had a blast. Made the oldest touch the sting rays. He liked them but didn't want to touch them. Found out they are building a penguin exhibit. Looked at cockroaches. Dropped off sister. Used parents restroom. Looked up at ceiling. Is someone flicking their boogers up there? Come to the conclusion that it's my father. Sit down. Write this post. Think of everything that has to get done and realize that naps haven't even been on the list today. And it isn't even dinner time yet!

Thoughts from a 3 year old

So this past week has been taken up with moving out of our apartment and in with my grandmother until our house is finished. Well we were talking with Aaden about how we would be living with Mama for a little bit. He was upset. First off we pack up his toys and then we tell him he has to live somewhere else so his rebuttal to all of this was...."No Aaden live with Mama. Aaden drive Mama's car. Aaden go see dinos. Aaden live with dinos. Aaden pterodactyl." Yes my son takes about himself in third person. But this translated to "Fine I'll go but I'm taking mama's car and going to live with the dinos." Cracks us up! His imagination is just flourishing. It is crazy! The stories he comes up with! And he's still a ladies man except he now has to fight for the light when Landon grabs it! Two boys who know how to make the ladies swoon. Fathers of daughters lock them up. Just kidding! My boys are good! In fact he has three girls, 17 year olds, fawning all over him right now. I think he's good! Oh and Danielle...Thanks for finding my blog!

Change

So I've been trying to grow my hair out for my hubby for a while and I succeeded. Kind of. It was down to my shoulders! Anyways I am always pulling it into a ponytail! And thus it never gets done! So today I went and chopped my hair off! I am back to short and spiky! I love it! I'll post pics as soon as I can! Probably tomorrow when I can do it my way and have my makeup done! My head feels ten pounds lighter. I cut around 7 inches off and it feels so liberating! I've been kind of down lately so this definitely peaks my spirits. Now it is time to get into shape so I am super hot looking for this years Navy Ball! Woo-hoo!

We did it!

So we bought a house last night! Yea!! We picked out our lot, floor plan, and upgrades! Then tomorrow night we go to their homefitting center and we pick out carpet, cabinets, etc! I am so flippin excited! Heres a pic of us standing in front of our lot!

It is so exciting that we could get such a great deal for our first home! I'll keep it all updated as often as I can. Especially with pictures!

Our possible new adventure for a house!

So it looks like we are going to build our own house! Yeah! Finally! It looks like it'll be out in Tooele! Since living in California the drive is nothing! We used to drive an hour just to get to the nearest Wal-Mart back in Cali! How funny is that! We are going today with our realtor to talk some things over and hopefully we will get a contract going and all that fun stuff! We are so excited! The only sad part is that since we are in the military we will end up leaving here in a few years! We are hoping he gets into the commissioning program that will send him to med school! That would be awesome. If he does hopefully he will get to go to the U. If so we will be here for probably another 7 years. If not we will be leaving in about 2! Either way we are excited and just glad to be here near family!

What a week!

So this past Saturday and Sunday was my first time as a Drilling Reservist. You know...weekend warrior! Well any ways it was boring! I sat through indoc and was bored. I have worked with the Reserve community for the past 5 years so all of this was old hat! Then on Sunday I got sick! And I mean sick. I ate at the U of U cafeteria and about 15 minutes in I started feeling nauseous! Well it progressed and I ended up in the ER. Nasty! They think it was a bug of somesort...a.k.a. FOOD POISONING! I'm still not feeling all that well but I'm getting better! And so this has been recovery week! I had my hair done yesterday and I love it! It has been too long! Well that is all for now as we are to be heading off to Steve's work party! Yeah! Not really but whatever! Ciao!

School

So my financial aid finally got approved and I will be going back to school! Yea! I should be done with my Bachelors by Christmas and then I'll take a break for a little bit and go back to school for another degree. It's going to be interesting having to juggle school with two children. Has anyone done that before? Any advice? I've done it with one child but I was working and was allowed to do my school work there so the only time I ever did school at home was on the weekends to get papers in. Hmmm we'll see how it goes! Well thats all for now!

I'm doing it!

I have finally decided to do a blog. Except for right now pictures of my children will not be posted. I'm doing this more for an online journal and resource place. With my knowledge of the military I hope to help fellow shipmates in understanding the ins and outs as well as helping wives. I'm a former military member myself. I just discharged in February to be at home with my kids. My hubby is military and with that I hope to be able to be of some assistance to the people who don't quite understand. Since I'm a SAHM I'm here to connect and get advice, give advice and to find great activities for my kids if not give ideas myself!