Pictures of Peanut #3

I'm sure you can barely see it but it is there towards the bottom of the dark circle.

And here is the other one.  Still small but you can see it better.

We are pretty excited.  It seems more real now.  More real to Steve since he now knows we really are pregnant and that I'm not just faking it it!  Hahaha.  Nausea is lessening up a bit but still there.  I'm down to my good days and bad days.  Today is my last day with Zofran so we will see how tomorrow goes.  

On another note of this pregnancy....Aaden keeps saying its going to be a "Baby Sister" but then changes his mind to a "Baby Brother"!  I guess we are up for a surprise.  I don't care too much about what we have.  I have 2 boys so if we have a girl, I know she will be taken care of, but if we have a boy then I'm set with 3 boys and I'll be cooking a lot of food when they are teenagers!  I'm enjoying it and I can't wait to see this little one and have him/her join this crazy family!  

This past weekend

So we had a busy weekend.  We started it off on Saturday with going to the Baptism of my uncle and two cousins.  It was something that has been long in the making and everyone was so excited that they were doing it.  My cousin ended up having to be dunked twice and it reminded me of Steve's baptism.  He ended up being dunked twice.  Afterwards we went and had a nice luncheon and just got to mingle with so many people.  I finally got to seem the new addition to the Robinson's family and he is a doll.  I woke him up and he just scowled at me.  Cracked me up.  Makes me really excited that I'm pregnant again.  My kids played with my my cousins son and they had a blast running around and being loud. After that it was back to our house to get ready for a birthday party.  The birthday party was fun.  Aaden is definitely 3/4 and thought that only he could have a birthday.  He tried to take her toys and blew out the candles on her cake.  Needless to say there was a crying fest.

On Sunday it was pretty chill here.  We went to a mexican restaurant and about 2 hours later I started to feel really sick.  It was bad.  So we just chilled and my husband took care of the kids.

On Monday, since Steve was off, we went to go see the midwife that I had already interviewed.  We did an ultrasound and there is a baby in there and we saw the heartbeat as well.  Aaden was pretty excited to see that.  We've hired her so we are going to be doing a birth at her birth center.  For Steve it now feels more real that we have a midwife and that he has seen the baby.  He cracks me up.  After that we came home and just enjoyed ourselves.  I started feeling yucky again so he let me relax.  (I'm really kind of nauseous all day but it gets worse right around 2 pm and continues until I go to sleep.)  He went and got a couple of movies and some dinner.  We watched The Princess and the Frog.  It was a cute movie.  The boys enjoyed it as well.  We danced and clapped and were just plain loud.  I enjoy those moments.

Well hopefully I'll remember to scan and post the first ultrasound pictures.  Until then have a good day!

Update

So I'm feeling much better.  Yet the nausea is still here but at least I'm a bit more functional.  I ended up going to the hospital this week to get some fluids since everything was making me want to vomit.  Now that I get up and get my Zofran and some cereal in me, I seem to do better.  I'm glad it is lessening up since tomorrow is a super busy day.  We have 3 baptisms and a birthday party.  I better pack me some snacks! I definitely can't wait until it is totally gone but that will come soon enough.  We are planning a few trips this year.  At least I am.  One is in May.  We are going to San Antonio to visit the in-laws. I'm excited since I haven't been to Texas in 3 years now.  I'm excited to see my mother-in-law but not to excited for everyone else.  Always seems to be an elephant in the room.  Enough said though.  Then in August I'm hoping we are able to take a trip to Disneyland for Landon's 2nd birthday.  I'd like to make it a tradition for all of our kids' 2nd birthdays to visit Disneyland for the first time.  Hopefully my Grandmother will make that trip with us.  I also need to start planning my kids' birthday parties.  I know that is 3 months and 6 months out but since I make their cakes I need to make sure that I have the practice and equipment necessary for it.

Other than that, in 3 weeks and 1 day...Steve and I celebrate our birthday.  I'm so luck to have a hubby born on the same day as I.  It makes budgeting a lot easier for presents.  (Like we ever do anything).  I'm thinking I might send him a cookie basket but we will see!

Well that is all for now.

This pregnancy is....

Getting to me so far.  I'm not a very good sick person.  Especially when it comes to nausea/vomiting.  I hate it and I talk myself out of it as much as I can yet it still keeps coming back.  Last night was horrible.  I laid in the fetal position all night long.  I'm sure there will be an ER trip here soon to get some IV fluids and some Zofran.  I have no patience left and no energy.  Dealing with 2 kids and dog takes a toll on me. I hate feeling dehydrated and I would really love to chug a big glass of water but water makes me so nauseous that even the thought of doing that turns my stomach.  This is my 4th time being pregnant and I'm just a little bit emotional with everything going.  I know this is a normal part of pregnancy but what isn't normal is being so sick that you start to lose massive amounts of weight and all food starts to turn your stomach.  The same thing is happening as what happened in my last pregnancy.  I lost a good 30 pounds in the first 2.5 months.  That is not good!!  So far in 5 days I've lost 4 pounds.  Now don't get me wrong, weighing as much as I did when I got pregnant going into month 9 is great, but it also means that the first 3 months of my pregnancy were a hell hole.  And every doctor is telling you your weight gain is insufficient.  Well I lost 30 pounds and gained 30 pounds.  Does that mean I was suppose to gain 60?  My body won't let me do that.  Even during pregnancy I have a high metabolism and I do have a tendency to watch what I eat so I definitely eat healthier during pregnancy, exercise more and all of this equals a steady weight gain or not so much as all.  I just want the nausea to go away so I can enjoy a glass of milk or some cereal.  I know no matter what that I will lose weight during my first 3 months.  Has been this way for each pregnancy.  Even with my first when I for sure thought I wasn't pregnant, I had an insatiable craving for Gatorade.  Thus this turned into not drinking soda and not really wanting to eat out... 1+1=2 right.  So not drinking soda (which is linked to weight gain) and not eating out (which is also linked to weight gain) equals that I lose weight.  I lost between 20-25 pounds during that pregnancy.  Gained it all back though.

So what does this all lead up to?....

Well I know friends and family have good intentions but please think before you say.  If you were in my shoes would you want to hear what you are going to say?

Here is a list of things not to say to a pregnant woman while dealing with such severe nausea/vomiting also known as hyperemesis gravidarum:

-Well you wanted to be pregnant so just deal.
-Just know that this means it is a healthy pregnancy and your baby is growing.
-Just enjoy it.
-Aren't you lucky that you get to lose weight.  (I don't consider myself lucky at all)
-Just think, you won't have to deal with it forever.

There are many more but I'm tired of thinking.

Pregnant women live in the moment.  I try to be positive and tell myself everyday that this will be gone in...5 more weeks...hopefully.  But that doesn't help.  I want it to go away now.  I want my energy back and I want to eat.  I love food.  I love to cook,  But looking into my fridge makes me want to pass out and vomit.  I know relief will come one day.  More than likely it'll be in the form of an IV and a pill.  Until then I will just go lay in my bed.


*If anybody has said the above mentioned things not to say to me, don't be offended.  I'm emotional and hormonal.  I know you meant in the best way possible.*